Reflections and Motivations

This week brought the assessment for iRock, unfortunately I was not choose for the job. However, this post is a positive one! I feel that the actual assessment showed me something I really needed to see. Dispute not being picked I feel like it was a very close decision. Going into this I couldn't help feel like I was going to be the underdog. Having never officially taught before as well as being employed outside of the music ecosystem, I was sure that I would have the most to prove so to speak. Like I would be the least qualified to be there. After the assessment and even now I feel the opposite. Both musically and career experience wise, I was on equal footing. I wasn't the imposter but rather another equally deserving musician looking for a career path. Of course I cant be sure exactly what made them choose the other candidates but what I do know is I am much more capable of achieving something meaningful through my passions than I initially thought. I just need to keep trying.

So that is exactly what i will do. I will keep making music and working on projects that inspire me. And the next time a creative job comes around that might feel out of reach, I will reach out anyway. I know I have what it takes, I just need to keep hunting opportunities.

We keep going.